Watching Josh

Why is it that the urge to have kids comes at a time when you are finally emotionally ready to handle them but you’re financially unable to support them, let alone yourselves? Being gay does have the advantage of not having any accidental babies, but being unemployed doesn’t.

For the past few months we’ve offered to watch our friends’s nephew, Josh, who has been pretty much given to them to take care of, whenever needed. Especially during this time where they are living in a hotel waiting to close on a house that needs to have work done on it before they can move in. Add to that that they have two kids of their own and that Josh’s mother just went into labor yesterday so they had her other son too and you’ve got one very crowded hotel room. If Josh’s little brother wasn’t beyond my patience level or their older girl, Abby, wasn’t so, well, dramatic, we’d have probably taken in one of them too. Okay, maybe not.

The weird thing about Josh is that he seemed to have instantly connected with us, and in return us to him. While any chances of adopting him are practically nonexistent, the thought has occurred and even been discussed. In the mean time I’ll be happy with whatever time we’re allowed with him, even if it is just the occasional babysitting or overnighter. However, I’ve had to somewhat emotionally disconnect so I don’t get too attached. My fear is that I may already be.